If I had to pick a theme song for the past four months of our lives, it is 2pac’s “Changes”(I listened to that song so much in middle school I still remember what CD and track it’s on…2pac: Greatest Hits, CD #2, track no. 5). I get he’s talking about a totally different thing on a totally different level, but the general idea is the same: “Things’ll never be the same / That’s just the way it is.”
Between getting Kili and your mother’s pregnancy, I have a hard time even remembering what life was like before all this happened. I used to spend two or three hours each evening playing “Heroes of Newerth” and my only worry was looking over my shoulder to make sure your mom didn’t catch me. Nowadays, I can’t keep my eyes on my screen for more than five minutes without looking over to Kili and making sure she isn’t gnawing on our furniture or ripping off a leaf from a plant.
I used to see your mom in normal pants. Nowadays, she’s wearing some pants x spandex lovechild called maternity pants. I never thought these things existed because I just never about them period. I always thought pregnant women just wore bigger clothes or loose dresses. I don’t mind maternity pants. It’s just DIFFERENT.
Your mom and I used to fight about games and talk about where we want to travel to next. These days, she just asks me whether I think she’s getting fat (of course not) and we take turns worrying about going insane when we have to juggle all our parents coming into town to see you.
Sometimes all the changes seem overwhelming. So what do I do? I remind myself how much your mom and I love each other because, as 2pac so aptly raps, Some things will never change.