Well…your mother and I just found out that our family of four (including Kili of course!) is going to grow by one more! It wasn’t exactly a surprise, but I would say it was unexpected. As the days ticked by and your mother’s period never showed up, we kind of figured what was up.
So I dropped you off at nursery this morning and then stopped by our local pharmacy where I asked for a pregnancy test. I must’ve had a grimace of some sort because the pharmacist then remarked, “You don’t seem very excited.” Fifteen minutes later, I whipped out the camera and took the obligatory shot of your mother holding the pee stick.
I’m still sorting through my own emotions about the news. I’m absolutely grateful and fortunate, and think it’ll make our lives all that more rewarding, but I’m not going to lie about me feeling mega nervous about it all. Some say that the second one is a lot easier because you know what to do and what to expect…well I feel like enough time has passed where I don’t really remember that stage of life except being really tired, living on coffee, and my back hurting. Not to mention how demoralized I feel about having to go through potty training again!!
But of course, I’m just whining here because I loved all the cute moments that carried us through those tired times. And of course it’ll be such a different experience this time around since we have you in tow. You’re a big brother now!! And you, Baobao, will learn how to share everything, including these letters. It’ll be an adjustment for you, but also for me…I suppose to start, I should change my mindset with writing these letters to both you and your sibling.
Here we go again!