I believe I have a superpower (emphasis: not a superhero), but not one that belongs in the Marvel or DC universe: I just seem to have no opinion. I always assumed that I was just like everyone else growing up, but as I’ve gotten older and interacted with more people, I realize that I am actually different. I see others rally, stage protests, icebucket-themselves/”fundraise”, follow the development of current events – doing things that imply they care about a cause, but the closest I’ve come to this is being friends with some of these people. All I am good for is sitting at the table as a nonparticipating participant with nothing to say. And because of the nature of this superpower, I was never made an outcast nor did I feel like I had to be closeted about it.
I know war is bad – Russia vs Ukraine, Israel vs Palestine, ISIS vs the World – and in these cases, I can delineate aggressors, but I don’t care about who was right or wrong. I don’t exercise my right to vote, I don’t cheer for my country in world competition, I don’t even care to choose a a particular cuisine when going out to eat. And all that perturbs me because some of these things are life-altering events for individuals and for society as a whole. I sometimes wonder whether I’m jaded or just plain self-centered: that I don’t care about any of those things because it doesn’t directly affect me. Or perhaps innocuous to the n-th degree and this is my way of avoiding conflict with others. How can anyone take issue with someone that has no issues?
But there is hope that I can indeed be just an average homo sapien. My kryptonite, which my wife will gladly attest to, is her. Rightly or wrongly (more often the latter), I’ll fight and defend a statement, perspective, or attitude I may carry. It stresses and frustrates her to no end that she gets this side of me and no one else in world does (I’m sorry!!!). But said another way, I care deeply about her and her opinion, and she’s brought out a passion in me I had been missing in the other parts of my life. Of course, it’d be more helpful if I could express that passion in a way she prefers, but it’s how I know she’s the one for me.