Dear Baobao,
As I had written about co-sleeping four months ago, I figured we are due for an update on this front because the situation has evolved. Namely, you’ve learned how to roll, which has complicated the situation.
The benefits to co-sleeping are all still there…it’s one of the best feelings in the world to wake up, turn our heads, and see you smiling back at us looking cute as buttons. We don’t have to shuffle that far away from the bed to get to you in the middle of night. Anddddd that’s about it.
We’re much more sleep-deprived these days and on some nights, your mom gets a little anxious about whether you’ll roll all the way over to her, sandwiching her between your fist and my breath. You always start out just fine in your crib, then with every passing hour, there’s a 50/50 chance you’ll make a roll to the left. So there have been nights where you were still in your crib, nights where you were smushed up against your mother, and nights where you were halfway in between. We have a big bed and there’s more than enough room for all three of us; the issue, or fear I should say, is waking you in the middle of the night because we shift positions or make a rustle with the sheets, and the closer you are to us, the more likely it will wake you. If you were always super easy to put back to sleep, then it’d be fine, but there have been enough nights where it would require one of us to fully wake up and focus 110% on getting you back down.
But we’ve decided to stick with the co-sleeping option. I’m not sure about your mom, but for me, it’s a lot of inertia…I can’t be bothered to break down the crib and reassemble it in the other bedroom. And it feels like we have doubled down on the co-sleeping situation by spending part of our weekend leveling your mattress with ours (lest you hang halfway off your mattress and plop down onto ours, which you have been prone to do).
Love,
Baba