There’s always been a part of me that wishes I was successful at doing some creative be it writing, making music, or drawing. So I dabble in each of those areas (probably why I still suck since I don’t just focus my efforts!) in my free time. It definitely keeps me busy, and as these projects are measured by months or half-years, it also provides some familiarity or structure to my everyday life.
However, that structure can also be a constant reminder I should be doing something else instead of whatever I want (e.g., play games or sit around at the park all day) because if I do, I’ll get this gnawing feeling in the back of my head I should be working on one of my projects. It makes me wonder what life is like if I just had work and then life outside of work where maybe I am supposed to just waste time hanging out with your mom. Would I be happier? I don’t think I’ll ever find out now. It used to be the projects keeping me occupied (luckily your mom works on her food blog, so we’re both hunched over our computers at the same time in different parts of the house), but then came Kili, and I’m sure you will be a handful too.
Anyway, I finally finished revising my stupid memoir I started four years ago for my creative writing grad program and got the manuscript to a point where I feel comfortable I can put it to rest. It’s out of my system and it’s done. I never thought I’d reach this point. It is a fair to ask why I just didn’t set it aside and quit if it was so annoying. Well, your dad isn’t a quitter. And while this piece may never see the light of day, I suppose the important part is I’m at peace with it.
So I started playing around with making a song on Fruity Loops. This is the fruits of my labor so far…
I was so proud of my three-layer track until I downloaded someone else’s Fruity Loops song, which had some one-bajillion layers to it. Demoralizing. But as 2pac says, “keep ya head up, and make ya mind strong.” On to the next one before there is no more time for next ones!!